Publisher's Synopsis
Travis shares his nightly journal entry about how he is hearing voices and having hallucinations. Travis shares openly what Tom and Sarah are telling him he must do to himself because he is autistic. Tom and Sarah believe that Travis should be punished because he has autism but Travis does not agree with them and refuses to give into them. Read along as Travis takes on the voices and beats them. Travis has heard voices constantly for over five years now. In this book he shares some of his coping strategies for dealing with the voices and standing up to them. Travis tells how he is not allowed to leave his room without a neurotypical friend because of what Tom and Sarah say will happen to him if he leaves his room. Travis explains how Tom and Sarah want him to punish himself because he has not had a girlfriend or has not been able to express his sexuality with a woman. Sometimes the voices are just whispers and other times like tonight as Travis writes this book they are yelling and screaming at him. Tonight Sarah is screaming in one ear and Tom is screaming in the other making it very hard for Travis to focus. They keep telling Travis that he is not a real person and he must be punished for not being a real person. Travis does everything in his power to convince Tom and Sarah that he is a real person but they do not agree with him or believe him. Read this book to see what it is like for someone to be having active voices and hallucinations throughout the day. Travis wrote this book while he was hearing voices and experiencing hallucinations so that the reader could understand what it is like for someone who has schizophrenia to function. Here is an excerpt from the book. "Tom and Sarah both team up against me sometimes. They are both whispering in my ears right now as I type this. They are telling me that I am a loser. They say that I am fat and ugly. They are telling me that I must die because I have autism. They say a lot of stupid things that do not make sense but I cannot make them go away. They just get louder if I try to make them go away and it just makes the entire situation worse. I try very hard not to listen to them but sometimes it is very hard. Like right now Tom just yelled at me and told me to cut my wrists. Luckily I do not have access to a razor blade right now so cutting my wrists is not an option or I would probably listen to him."
