Publisher's Synopsis
This book is a raw and exposedaccount of the author's ravagedroad through twenty years ofhospitalizations for anorexia andschizophrenia. As she reflects on thegenesis of her disease, she shares thevulnerability young girls must reckonwith as they try to fit into the "normal"expectations of being slim, smart andpopular. The author reveals how shefelt her easiest pathway to gain anyfeelings of worthiness came in theform of mental and physical illness, and how these experiences shapedher self-identity as 'being crazy.'She discovers how the mental health system fed her false senseof self, and faces regular questioning of her sanity by doctors andtherapists. She wonders whether if she was eighty pounds, wouldshe get more attention? With little else to cling to, she wants to bethe best at something, and that something was being crazy. Thisbook is a call to compassion for anyone who has ever been, or hasknown, somebody caught in the vicious cycle of mental illness and eating disorders
