Publisher's Synopsis
They do say, nothing happens by chance of accident, it just we do not know what the road to take in to turns us out to be. Because I never chose my life as I became too be today from growing up. I had a lot of what we call healthy dreams I wanted to be, but all those doors closed for me. Like it paved out the road our system had for me to be, which was out of my control in what my response brought out for all to see.
I kept moving towards the one I had for me, but something hit me at the age of fourteen that my uneducated mind still could calculate my future, allow me to see what I will be doing if I stay on the course I am at as an adult did not look pretty for me. Help me change the course to be different from the first kids I grew up with. I think that some had the same vision because a high percentage I saw traveled the same way. Who just was kids playing around like a scientist experimenting on new things to discover, but ours were our life.
As the new way came in, I brought forth a different attitude, like putting on a uniform to play a different character, which I had to change my mentality because I did not know where will it carry me. The playing sport games did not hold my Interest because it never was a dream for me, working changed because of my limited abilities. Using drugs, and petty hustling became my thing, I called my new survival game I learned to play. That naturally it gets better with time, that it was the first time I saw what I can control to take me to a factual dream I can live with that based on my ability in what I want to stop to build a better understanding in what I can exactly do without any of the things I walked away from.
Was school the answer to help our problem, I thought not because my mind was building up from the up, and down challenges in what I was going through. It was not nice, but it was my individual decision for me to make was not that bad from watching what others was going through. It was more of a character building before one get to the next level to be respected to pass, for one to be able to have certain doors open, as those who at a higher level watching those under them to see how far one trying to survive.
Words come through from different kind of people, where some of those words was not directed to one group of people, but it was heard many who let it lock in, so one will not make that kind of mistake they see so many have jumped into. That become an acceptable thing where many lost feelings in things, who let it roll off like they have no problem as where they stand. I hope those fools do not come around me to as me where I stand. Because it should be obviously, I do not stand with them.
