Publisher's Synopsis
"I Was Definitely Born Into Trauma," will open up many gates for conversation about childhood trauma. In this book, I spoke the rawness and realness of what I've endured. I was raised in a crap house surrounded by prostitutes, gamblers, drug dealers, pedophiles, killers, thieves, one saint and the most respected men's of the cloth, Pastor O.C. Collier & Pastor Brown. Growing up in the black community some parents normalized trauma. I was silenced as I spoke my truth about molestation. I was taught what went on in our home remained in our home. Child Molesters was protected and the child was silenced to carry the burden of traumatization of being violated as the fault was their own. I went from being shot at the age of three, being molested by a few people which was friends of the family, witnessing domestic abuse, facing colorism within my own home, dealing with mental health issues and being of witness to a murder, becoming the protector of many because I wasn't protected. Two weeks before I turned fourteen years old I became pregnant. I became a single parent at the age of fourteen to my son Timothy Wallace. I was kicked out of school at the age of fifteen. I didn't allow the life as a single mother to define me, I defined it. My first born son gave me strength. He gave me a reason to live. As a token of my appreciation to my oldest son Timothy Wallace and my remaining five children Timmesha Nash, Tyrell Wallace, Hamisha Howard, Nura Howard, Chukuana Howard and my grandchild De'Miya Wallace who I raised as my own, I received my education. I received my G.E.D. on my grandmothers, Martha Lucille Wallace birthday May 15, 1998. Also, I received my Associate's degree in Human Services and received my PLADAC license in Alcohol and Drug Counseling on June 17, 2017 @Southeast Community College in Lincoln Nebraska. I wanted to be a trail blazer for my children and grandchildren. I wanted them to know regardless of what life obstacle's throws at them, they can still come out on top positively and they're in control of their destiny as I was in control of mine. With this book you'll see all of the trauma I've endured. With all odds that was stacked against me, I beat all odds. I DEFINE my TRAUMA and didn't allow my TRAUMA to DEFINE me. This book will be a four book series. My oldest son Timothy Wallace was murdered two days before the world was closed down due to COVID-19. My series of books will be leading up to his murder, friends and a family member involvement in his murder, murder trial and living the life as a grieving mother while wearing many of hats while grieving. I want to give thanks and praise to my loving husband Ira James Bowdery for his amazing support, his strength, love, understanding, admiration and patience because it haven't been easy dealing with my grief with the loss of my child.