Publisher's Synopsis
I wanted to be a successful filmmaker. I was ready to do anything to fulfill my dream. I wasn't accepted to any film schools so I thought I should just make my own movie. I took a big loan from the bank to finance my movie but too many things turned out to go wrong in the production process and all I was left with was a big debt, damaged social life, damaged health and a deep depression. I wanted to succeed so bad I went through the same process again and again and again. This book tells a story of the absolute madness that drove me to defy death and go for a new movie project time and time and time again and made me fall towards a total breakdown.
