Publisher's Synopsis
The purpose of this bookMy darkest secrets are in this book to help others who are struggling through life- lost. All the things that I prayed no one would ever find out, are revealed here. Luke 12:2 There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed or hidden that will not be made known (NIV bible, 2007). There is hope and healing available even for those who are plagued with mental illness and post-traumatic stress disorder. Preface Welcome to my journey from hell to sobriety! My journey began at birth, living on the streets in California. I moved in with my Grandmother at age six which meant I had to deal with her mentally ill children, including Uncle Psycho who I believe was a serial killer in California. When I grew up, I married into a dangerously dysfunctional family. After making that terrible mistake at 18 years of age, I learned to read and write at the age of 23. There was trauma from the bad marriage that left me with a severe case of post-traumatic-stress disorder. I began stripping or pole dancing for a living. I was lost and confused so I started drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes. Along the way there were people that were co-dependents that would sabotage any attempt I made at getting well. I was in hell and out of ideas so I went to Alcoholics Anonymous. It was not working fast enough and I chose to seek psychiatric help that I would later regret. I rode the medication merry go round that some alcoholics ride but none of them walk away sober. Mixing booze and pills went very wrong. I eventually found my solution in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous and I became an honest person. I learned what to do when the obsession to drink occurred and after all the drama and trauma, I had a year of sobriety. I went on to complete my education as an honor roll student receiving a Bachelor's of Science in Nursing. Into my second year of sobriety I developed self-worth. My last drink was October 31st 2004. I do not smoke, take medication or ingest happiness in any way. Today there are no big deals. Only life.
